Slow down…. part dos.
Continuation of slowing down.. Funny story. The morning after the night that I wrote this, I woke up late for work. As I was rushing to get my things together and head out, I stopped and thought about the blog post I had just written and I thought to myself.. work will still be there. So that morning, I drove to work in the right lane of Alcoa highway and looked at everything around me that I could. The sunrise, the fields, the cars and other people rushing to work and I had a better day that day than I had in a long time. I was just generally happier. At some point during that day I couldn’t get the song “slow down” by Nichole Nordeman. That song makes me so emotional for several reasons. Every time I hear it I think about me growing up, my nieces growing up SO fast, my little buddy Spencer growing up, my mom getting older.. and I lose it every time. I also think it has something to do with just recently moving out and not seeing my mom every single day. She’s my best friend and it’s hard to go from seeing her ALL the time to MAYBE seeing her once a day.. and i love watching my nieces grow up just not so fast. I can’t believe how far my Audji has come on so many things. Ava is still in her little sweet, innocent baby phase but starting to come out of it and I’m just have a hard time grasping it all. If I could pause time for a split second, I would in a heartbeat.
Do you have a favorite athletic event?
My favorite athletic event would have to be baseball. I love watching anyone or any team play baseball. I also love the memories of my family going to all the Smokies games.
Write a memory from more than ten years ago.
What perfect timing. August fourth is my Papaw Mac’s birthday. So I thought, what a better story to tell? I grew up living a football field away from my grandparents. What kid doesn’t want that? I loved it! They would always keep Popsicles in their freezers. In the refrigerator/freezer upstairs and in the deep freezer in the basement. I was only four at the time so my mom would walk there with me to get a popsicle every now and then and we usually went down to the basement because we knew it was always stocked! This particular day, for some reason, we went to the kitchen to get one. As soon as we got back out to our house, we saw an ambulance pull to the basement of their house. My dad immediately threw his shoes on and ran. I remember standing on the porch eating my popsicle and I had my arm wrapped around the wooden pole of the porch. That’s all I remember besides seeing my dad run for the first (and only) time. I think I only remember those few parts because while I was so young, this was traumatic. My dad apparently beat the ambulance to the hospital that day. And that doesn’t surprise me. My mamaw had hollered down to my papaw who was in the basement fixing the water heater and never got an answer.. When she went down to see what was wrong, he was in the floor. He died from a heart attack that day. June 12, 2000 . A memory from over 10 years ago that I’ll never forget. But I’m very thankful that I didn’t go down to that basement that day.
“Just when the caterpillar thought the world was ending, he turned into a butterfly”
I love love love this. I’m almost always to my point of breaking when things shoot up out of nowhere and start going great again. I think this happens because God wants us to know that no matter how far we go or have gone, he’s still there and always will be. This is another thing I’m remembering through this stupid battle with depression!
What are you grateful for today?
Today I’m grateful for the love my nieces have for each other. Audrey is three and Ava is one and up until recently, Ava has been crazy about Audrey but Audrey didn’t quite feel the same way. Lately, Audrey has been head over heels for Ava and thinks she hung the moon. They’re definitely going to grow up being the best of friends! I remember my older sisters loving me so much and now I get to watch that through my lovely nieces and for that, I am grateful. 🙂
One goal for August-write it down!
My one goal for August would have to be to get all of my mental health under control. Between depression, anxiety, and as of lately, irritability, it’s been hard to wake up in the mornings motivated to do things. I’m hoping to get all of that under control or somewhat under control by the end of August!